Thursday, February 19, 2009
Another Old One!
Just when I thought the romance was lost...So I’ve been kind of grumpy the past few days because I have not been able to see much of Josh and when I have he’s been sick. I also knew I wasn’t going to get to see him much this weekend because we were splitting up for Mother’s Day. Just this once…. Anyway, I had to work late tonight and I called Josh on my way home to tell him to meet me. Just when I was about to call to see where he was, because it was taking longer than it should have, he rings the doorbell. I go to the door ready to ask what took him so long and he has this cute flowering plant in his hand with a card! My little schmoozer!!! The card said how amazing I was because I took care of him when he was sick and he wanted to get me something to show how much it meant to him that I took care of him. It’s a gorgeous plant with beautiful bright orange blossoms!! I’ll take pictures later! He’s such a schmoozer! That’s why I love him. He said he would always do that type of stuff for me and that he was just getting warmed up!
An Old Blog...
This is from a blog I used like twice, but I want to not forget what I wrote about Leroy!
“I tried sleeping…
Jan 1, 2007
I tried sleeping but I have ENTIRELY too much on my mind!!
1st: I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world! I know I know, girls say that all the time! BUT with the guys I’ve dated in the past, this one is WONDERFUL! Even without the shitty guys, this guy is amazing! I am so lucky to have found him! I definitely thank my good buddy Courtney for introducing us! I can be myself around him…my crazy, immature, thinking too much, worrying too much, loving too much self!! It’s great! And he is willing to spend as much time with my family as I am willing to spend, and he doesn’t get upset about it! He makes me laugh…ALWAYS!! He can even make me wake up smiling…if you know me, you know that is a tough one! In the 2 1/2 months that I’ve known him, he has not made me cry…that is actually a 1st! And when I do cry, he doesn’t get scared off. He just sits there and holds me and tells me it will be ok. Just an amazing guy!!
2nd: Our very close family friend found out about 8 months ago that he had a tumor in his brain. They removed as much as they could and have done everything possible to get rid of the rest of it and the cancer. It has not worked. This guy was like a 2nd dad to me. He gave me my 1st job, was there throughout the end of high school and the beginning of college. I got to borrow his car for trips. He helped pay for school. He taught me how to change a tire. He dated my mom for 3 years. This man would do anything for me and my family! He is an ABSOLUTELY AMAZING MAN!! This strong man is growing weaker every minute! Mom, Ton and I went to visit him a few days ago in the hospital. We tried to make him laugh. He told me that he has prayed for me for the last 20 years. Now, I’m not sure about 20, but I know he has for at least 10. It is so sad to see such a great man in pain. I spoke to his sister-in-law this evening. She was giving us an update on him. Besides having the cancer, he also has recently had pnuemnoia, and they just found how he has a perforated bowl. Now, apparently they would operate on a healthy person ASAP for that, but they told his family that with him being as weak as he is, he would not make it through the surgery. Untreated, he would have 3-7 days left. They decided to try antibiotics, which doesn’t cure it, but I guess it will prolong things to see if he gets strong enough to have surgery…which is not likely. Diane was saying that with the antibiotics he is not allowed to have anything to eat or drink (orally). She said that when she went in to see him he was BEGGING her for something to drink. All she was allowed to do was wet his lips with a sponge. He was pulling on her hand trying to get as much as he could from it. He has gone through so much pain. In getting to know this wonderful man starting 10 years ago, I know some of his feelings. He has the strongest faith I have seen! Right up there with my family! But I know he’s scared! When I 1st found out he had cancer, I felt his fear. I didn’t even have to see him. I just knew his thoughts. It brought me to tears to feel that…to feel it for him. He has been trying to fight this all along. I think he has finally come to the realization that he is not going to win. But I know…I saw it in his eyes when I was there last week. He is still afraid. He loves Jesus…but he’s still afraid. Who wouldn’t be?!?! I just…I just feel for him. He loved/loves our family so much. He enjoyed the time he was able to spend with us. Even after surgery and radiation and chemo…he was asking if he could go to dinner with us. I just want him to not be in pain anymore. I want him to not be afraid. I want him to not have to beg for water!!!!
3rd: I am trying to figure out how to get my ass to Indy! My wonderful friends are up there! My AMAZING boyfriend is up there! It’s just time to go. I need to talk to my boss, but I’m afraid he’s going to say no. I’m afraid he’s going to tell me that I need to work a little harder before I can move there. Which is reasonable…I just don’t want to have to wait!! I’ve waited long enough! It’s time to go up there!
*Sigh* Just too much on my mind to go to sleep!”
UPDATE: The boyfriend is now my fiance and we are getting married in October. The man with cancer passed away on January 9, 2007, just 8 days after I blogged that. And I found my way to Indy!
UPDATE TO THE UPDATE: Now happily married to the wonderful guy and still living in Indy!