We couldn't be happier!

It has definitely been a while.  I haven't posted because I was trying to hold in the excitement and would not be able to post without talking about it. 

Our prayers have been answered!  God has blessed us with the opportunity to be parents.  Our little one will arrive around July 12, 2011.  We couldn't be happier!  We are truly blessed!

Now, we are planning to wait until the little one is born to find out if it's a boy or girl!  But for now, I want to document some of the gender neutral things that I like, such as bedding and rooms.  This is just information gathering at this point.  If anyone has any really good gender neutral room and bedding ideas, definitely let me know!

I don't want the African theme, but I like the colors in this one:

Almost 2 Years...

Josh is on a long road trip.  He drove down to Tennessee this afternoon and turned right back around to drive up here.  He's gonna be sleepy, but it's nice that we can do things like this.  He can call me up in the morning and tell me he's going to Tennessee, I can call him up and tell him I'm heading to DC.  Not that we really ever get to do this, but it's nice that we were able to this time. 

It will be our 2 year anniversary in a few days.  Almost 2 years ago, I had the time of my life!  I'm married to a fantastic man who has made life interesting ever since I've met him!  And I swear he is a comedian! =)

Things that my husband has done for me over the past 2 years of marriage:

• You are the funniest person I know
• You don't like to see me sad or cry and do everything you can to make me smile
• You always give me a "bite" even when I know you don't want to
• You almost always save the last bite for me, unless you "forget"
• You forget things, or don't pay attention...A LOT =)
• I enjoy just being with you...I enjoy just being, with you
• You listen to me and usually take into consideration the "suggestions" that I make...and yet it seems that I am either eating my words or laughing because it actually works when you do it and it may have taken a "tiff" to get that far :)
• You are an amazing partner
• You push me and have so much confidence in me
• You enjoy my independence and encourage me to keep it, even when I don't feel like it!
• You allow me to see a person that no one else gets to see
• You love me for me

Thank you Joshua, for making the past 2 years amazing!

I love you!

Why I can't sleep

There needs to be some sort of  switch for my brain!  I need to be able to turn it off for bed time!

Things that are currently not allowing me to sleep:

• Looking for a home
• Build or buy "Used"
• Can't find any home in the area we want with the 3 criteria
• Who do we need to talk to to build
• Church
• Lumber Stores
• Family
• How much can we spend
• How long will it take us to save the Down Payment
• Baby
• What are the next steps
• What is plan A, B, and C
• How much do they cost
• How long will it take
• What is the opportunity cost (There's my Econ degree)
• People who don't like me or are mad at me
• You don't even know me
• I would never purposely or knowingly do something to hurt you
• I may seem mean at 1st, but give me a day and you'll see it's because I'm a little shy
• I hate confrontation, but I would rather talk it out than not talk at all
• School
• Should I go back
• What does Josh need to do to go back
• How much will that cost
• Opportunity cost
• Budget
• What are our new goals after paying the loan
• How is Mallarie's going
• Vacation
• Can we go with Jessica and Dave
• Do I save more so that I have more next year

When did I become such a Type A personality (The test I just took said I'm in the middle)??  Seriously, do I have to have a plan at all times to be happy?  Am I really the type who is this discombobulated without a plan?  I understand we're in the beginning stages of starting a newish chapter...or maybe a few new chapters, but I'm not a big fan of feeling this out of place!

Catch up...

So...Josh was gone for 8 days visiting family out in Wyoming.  I had to stay back to work, so I missed out on playing with the family.  On the bright side, Josh gets to see his sister twice this year!  Anyway, he's back and I'm so happy about that!  Although, I'm trying to figure out how to sleep with his whistling again =).

On the baby making front...we did go back to the doctor today.  Good news...Josh is fine!  All his tests came back great!  Even the one that caused us to do these additional tests!  Apparently it's all about timing!  But...trying to time him with me is going to be tough!  As my mom said, "It makes you wonder how accidents happen."  As I say...the Lord is definitely teaching me patience!

The next step is the fertility doctor.  This will help us figure out how aggressive to be.  Hopefully we'll be able to get some answers on what we should do.  I need to know the odds for all of the options.  If we go the least aggressive route, how long will that take and will it actually work, or is there a 5% chance it will??  If we go the medium route, how much more of a chance is there that will work better than the 1st.  Hopefully we'll know something a little more by next week!

Right now...definitely enjoying spending time with hubby!!  He's busy watching Dazed and Confused right now.  Of course this is a movie that he'd love! =)

I have an amazing family!

I have an amazing, faithful, caring, selfless family!  I have always known that my family was here to support me, be here for me and celebrate with me...but you don't always get to see it.  Of course it was prominent at our wedding!  That is why we women cry, because we see how much we are loved by so many people and it becomes overwhelming...in a good way. 

And the neat part about my family is I'm not just talking about immediate family.  I am talking about 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th cousins a gazillion times removed.  When something is going on in our family, EVERYONE knows about it.  Some people don't like that, but in our family it is followed by support, love and LOTS of prayer! 

Josh and I are definitely on the receiving end of a lot of that, and lately we hear more and more about how many people in our family are praying for us.  Because my family knows EVERYTHING, they all know that we are having some difficulties in the baby making arena.  And because they know that, they have been saying many prayers.  I have one cousin who has put us in the prayer book so that the nuns at church are praying for Josh and myself.  My mom spoke to the priest who married us and he asked that I call and speak to him.  After giving me a name of someone to speak with, he said he would be saying prayers for us.  My aunt just sent us a card that said that a votive candle has been lit for our intention for the next 365 days and that we will be included in the thoughts and prayers for daily mass.  One of my other cousins gave me the same prayer card she used when praying for her little miracle who finally made his appearance.  My Godmother is saying prayers.  My cousins are saying prayers.  My granny and my aunt gave both Josh and myself medals.  And we have many friends who are praying as well.  They are included in this amazing family!  And these are only a few that I know about. 

I know that there are a lot more prayers going on and Josh and I are so very grateful!  This is just one of the many reasons why I have such a fantastic family!  Not just because they're praying for this purpose, but because they care so much about us and want so much for us.  I am a strong believer in the fact that this is one of the main reasons that I am so calm through this whole process.  Don't get me wrong, I do get very impatient at times, but even if it comes down to us not being able to have children, I am still very calm.  I know there are other options and am just excited about the opportunity to teach and care for one of God's babies...not matter how that little one may come to us!

I just wanted all of my family to know how much we love you and how much we appreciate all the support, love and prayers! 

And Baby Wisby...one day you will see this and know how much you are truly loved...even before you were with us!

Camping

So the hubby and I went camping this weekend. We went down to Brown County. It was a great weekend!

We went down Friday night ready to set up! Got to the gate at about 9:30. Josh talked to the guy and couldn't find our name. 15 minutes later they discovered that the person who booked us, reserved Saturday night/Sunday night. So we had to pay for an extra night and take the only site available. Now, mind you, this wasn't the site that we were reserved for, so we had to move by 2:00 on Saturday. Oh well, at least we get to practice putting up the tent!

Now, the site we were given was the 1st one you saw, so everyone drives by it. AND there wasn't a great spot to set up camp! It was either on the gravel, which I was concerned about a hole in my...I mean our...tent. Or set up on a slant. 15 minues later, we finally made the decision. Guess who slept, rolling down the hill! =) We finished setting up at about 11:15.

Josh woke up bright and early Saturday morning. If the sun's up, so is my hubby!!! He took a walk, came back and woke me up. We took a short bike ride and then went hiking for about 2 1/2 hrs. That's a lot of hiking for this girl!

After hiking we came back to tear down the tent and move to our next site. This spot was a nice spot. We were a little closer to our neighbors, but at least we weren't rolling down a hill! Then we got cleaned up so that we could go into town and look at the shops. We walked into a few and then found a cute little place to eat.

That was pretty much the most exciting stuff. We just came back started the fire and relaxed until bed time. Josh went on a hike Sunday morning before we left. I decided that was my chance to sleep in! :)

We're excited to go back! There are a lot of things to do there.

Next weekend Josh is going camping/boating with some guys from work and I'm heading to Mom's to go canoing! Woohoo!

Faith & Mortality...this is a little deep

Sometimes while I'm falling asleep I'll lie in bed and listen to myself breathe. That then turns into feeling my heart beat as I lie on my side. After about 4 beats, I start to get a little nervous and think of how hard that thing works. Then I start to think about it not working any longer. That then turns into thoughts of dieing and then what comes after death. Mind you, this is all while I'm lying in bed trying to go to sleep! Not very relaxing and calming, nor is it sleep inducing.

I have grown up in the church all of my life. I have believed in God all of my life. But that thought still creeps in my head as I'm lying there feeling my heart beat and praying that it keeps beating for a while...what happens if there is nothing there after I die? Things were so much simpler as a child. I knew for sure where I was going when I died. I knew I would see my family members who have passed before me. I still believe, but there is that slight doubt that creeps in. I know that is Satan working his magic...but sometimes it makes me think.

My mom always told me that we fear the unknown. And this is an unknown, sort of. With faith, it is not unknown, but the details are still fuzzy. Besides, it's better to believe, because who really wants to think that there is nothing after this life??

It's been crazy busy!

Wow! I have not had any time for anything lately!! Things have been absolutely crazy! I have been so unbelieveably busy at work. We just hired a new person and he is fantastic! I am doing the best I can to get him up to speed and he is all over it! I see good things happening.

No new news on baby making. We see a doctor in a little less than a month to see what some next steps are.

I'm trying to decide if I am ready for a promotion. I can do it, but I am unsure if I am ready for the stress when we have the baby difficulty. I will have so much resentment toward my company if something happens. And we all know stress causes issues. I am still praying about that and trying to figure out which way God wants me to go.

Logan is getting married this weekend! I can't wait to celebrate with them! It will be great! Love you chicadee!

Results

So the results came in last Friday. I haven't really felt like writing about them, but I suppose I should. They came back abnormal. Not sure exactly what that means, since all we can do is guess what the results mean at this time. We have an idea, but we don't know what comes next. We have an appointment with another doctor to figure out the results, but that isn't until mid August. That is the earliest we can get in. So, right now we're just waiting...again.

All on His time, and He likes to make that perfectly clear to me! =) But in the meantime, he may be opening some other doors. I have applied for the Director position at work. I am completely nervous and excited about it! We'll see how that goes!

I hope everyone had a good 4th!

Still waiting...

Still no word yet! Waiting for results! That means we have to wait another month...or at least try the same method for another month, before adding on a new one.

The waiting could be a slight blessing. I mean...of course it's a blessing. Things got a little crazy at work this week. My manager is no longer with the company, which leaves an open opportunity. This is going to be a crazy challenge, but I'm ready for it! Have to interview and everything, of course! Wahoo! =)

More waiting...

If nothing else, the Lord is teaching me patience. I swear I have not been praying for it! If anyone out there has been praying for patience for me, please stop! =)

So, I had to wait until my period started to figure out when to take the clomid. Well, period started Saturday. You would think that would be a good thing. Weeeeeeeeeeell...you have to start taking the clomid on day 5 of your cycle. So, starting Saturday, that means I have to start taking it Wednesday. Well, just to be sure we're not missing any steps, hubby needed to get checked. We got the information in the mail on Thursday, he called them on Friday to make the appointment for Monday (today). It takes 3-5 days to get the results back. Both Josh and I have spoken to both locations to see if there was anyway to "Rush order" the results. Of course, that was a no go. So...if we're lucky, we will get the results back on Wednesday. Josh has pointed out, several times, that nothing comes easily for Wisby's. Well, since I am now a Wisby, I suspect that the results will come in to us on Thursday! Which is one day too late! That means we have to wait until next month to start. I know, I shouldn't be in such a rush, and should be patient. But dog gone it!! I've been waiting for this step for quite some time.

Apparently PCOS is hereditary, or can be. Well, my mom had it and now, so do I. My mom had me just fine, but she had to take clomid to get my brother. I am hopeful the clomid will work and am ready to take it! Just have to wait and see I suppose!

I'll let you know when the results come in!

Who knew...

Who knew getting pregnant could be so hard?? There is potential that I could be in trouble for writing this. I am not an extremely private person. My husband on the otherhand, would prefer to keep things quiet. But i feel that if I can talk about things that maybe someone else has experience with, then they may have some insight on different matters. So let's begin...

Josh and I have been trying to have a baby. I guess you could say we've been trying since May of 2009. But the doctor finally started doing something this past February. I had a bunch of tests done, and lots of blood drawn! Blah! *Reminder to self: Always lie down when having blood drawn* The results came back that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). Basically, that means that instead of my ovaries releasing the egg, it stays there and becomes a cyst (At least that's my understanding). So we had to take steps to combat that.

The 1st step was to start taking a medication that will start getting rid of those cysts. We've been on that medicine for 3 months. We just went back to the doctor to talk about the next steps. The next step is to start taking a medication called Clomid. Basically that is supposed to make me ovulate. So, we're just waiting to get that started. Hopefully we can start that sooner rather than later. I guess we shall see. And hopefully that'll work!

I'll keep you posted!

Since I've been married...

• I'm not sure I've had a full, good night's sleep (Will I ever or does that only get worse when kids get involved?)
• I've gained way too much weight!
• I've realized how anal I truly am
• I realize now, more than ever, how important it is to rinse dishes if you don't wash them right away
• I've discovered that boys are gross (Even though I really love him)
• I know the buttons to push and not to push...and sometimes I push the ones I shouldn't, just because :)
• I've never felt more secure and confident (Mr. Wisby is there even if I screw up)

We've been married nearly 2 years and I LOVE IT!! I couldn't have asked for a better partner in all things! I am very blessed that the Lord picked him to be mine and me his! I sure do love my husband! I can't wait to see what the future brings!

*Side Bar* Hubs would just roll his eyes if he saw this. He usually does after asking what I'm blogging about :)

More SYTYCD

Did I mention that I love SYTYCD?!?! I didn't get to see everything tonight but these dancers are so good!! So far my absolute favorite is Kent Boyd. Every time he performs, talks, whatever I am smiling and laughing the whole time! He is just so much fun to watch!

On tonight's show, I really liked Jose Ruiz's performance. He had that same spark this performance that Kent had! It made me smile the whole time! That's why the judges love him.

Goodness...I was going to start to say who else I liked, but there isn't really anyone I don't like! I just really enjoy watching these people dance! They are so exciting!

I did feel a little bad for Travis, one of the choreographers. He was supposed to create a jazz routine, but it wound up being more of a contemporary one. Nigel made sure he knew that. I thought that was interesting, but pretty much agreed.

I AM one of those people...

So, today I realized that I AM one of THOSE people!

I am one of those people who...

• Puts the juice I didn't drink back in the pitcher (Did that for the 1st time tonight)
• Gets emotional when I see people who remind me of my loved ones
• Yells at people in the car
• Gets really motivated to do something good for myself and then gets sidetracked
• Hates to shop, but loves new things
• Wants to be creative, but has very little artistic ability
• Finally realizes that all the things my mom told me while in High School and College were mostly right
• Loves the summer, but hates to sweat

These are just a few of the things I have realized recently!

Today's Conversation

So here was a very recent conversation I had with my manager:

I had to prepare a flyer for an event happening on campus. I completed it and sent it over to her for review. After approving it, she asked me to print 125 color copies (I knew this wouldn't fly with the IT guy). I had to go find the IT guy to see what lab to use and what the log in information was. Upon doing so, he asked what I was printing and I told him flyers. He asked how many and I told him I could not disclose that information, knowing good and well that he would not approve. He told me I needed to go to Kinkos to do it because the printers in the labs were for the students and when we use them for that, that puts more wear and tear on the printers. So I go back to my manager and let her know, upon which she says, "We don't have time to go to Kinkos", and "What are those printers for." I then said they were for the students. To which she tried to call the IT guy and I told her he was not in his office and he was roaming the hall. She got up from her desk and stomped out saying, "I don't have time for this. You need to push back, Jen!" She went and talked to the IT guy. She came back and I asked her what the outcome was and if I needed to go print them. She said, "IT guy said he would do it."

I wish I could express attitude in this because there was big time attitude!!

My heart was beating after that conversation! I was so mad!! It may sound petty, but if you could only hear the conversation...

Dear Baby Wisby (To be conceived)

Dear Baby Wisby,

I just want to write a little note to let you know how much everyone wants to meet you. Your daddy and I are particularly excited to meet you one day. I just wanted to write this to let you know that there are a lot of people praying for your arival. So just know that you are very much wanted and we can't wait to meet you! Until you get here, we'll just keep practicing with our Goddaughters!

Love,

Mama

The weekend is here!!

I am so happy it's the weekend! I feel like I need a vacation in order to refresh. I won't be getting one for a while, so I will need to figure something else out.

So...boys are funny. I'm sure many of you know this already. I just asked my hubby when he last washed a load of jeans (mind you he wears jeans daily and only has 4 pair). He hasn't done a load of jeans in about 4 weeks. He does, however, put them in the dryer with a Downey sheet. I think he forgets he is no longer a bachelor :) That's ok, I still love him...dirty jeans and all.

We are heading home for a wedding this weekend. My cousin, Chad, is getting married to his sweetheart! Yay! I am excited to spend time with my family...especially Mom, Jessica, Lindsey and Camryn!!

SYTYCD

I love love LOVE So You Think You Can Dance!!!!

Mia Michaels and Sonya Tayeh are my absolute favorite choregraphers. Although, from watching this evening, I really think I'm going to like Travis Wall. Travis was one of my favorite dances also. I'm not so sure how I'm going to like this season though. They've done it a little differently than previous seasons. This year they are paired with former season dancers. From this evening, it was difficult to see the new dancers dancing. It was hard to tell who was new and who was a veteran.

Fantastic Video

I am in love with this video! It gives me goosebumps and makes me want to cry!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY

Thanks Amy for posting it on your blog!

I wish I could figure a few things out with this blog though. Like how to make the video link just a name. And how to tag Amy's blog in this blog, where I write her name...I'm open for a little help :)

Wedding Stuff...

Ok, so I am addicted to wedding stuff! I think I always have been a little bit, but I'm a little obsessed. Not that I buy it or anything, but I truly enjoy looking at people's wedding pictures. All brides are soooo pretty! It's fun to look at and see all the ideas that people have. And I love love love wedding dresses! Funny thing, I only tried on 1 wedding dress and that's the one I wore for my wedding! It probably was the best idea though, because if I tried on too many I really wouldn't know which to pick.

I also love "Say Yes to the Dress". Josh get so aggravated that I still watch it. He tells me that our wedding is over and doesn't understand why I'm still addicted. I can't explain it. It's just fun to see the girls find "THE" dress!

Speaking of weddings, my cousin Chad is getting married on Saturday! I'm so excited for them!

2 in 2 days!

Holy cow! I'm posting again.

So I've discovered that the side mirror on the car is not the most flattering mirror. Go figure! When Josh and I go for drives, I'm definitely looking in it too much. And usually I can see my frown lines, laugh lines and "surprised" lines. The other day I looked over at Josh and there's nothing. No lines. I asked why he had no wrinkles and he said it was because he doesn't frown as much as me! Now, that may be true; however, he didn't have any laugh lines or "surprised" lines either! Come on now, no lines anywhere? Fine, you just keep your perfect skin buddy! I mean, I get to look at it every day so I should stop complaining. I don't see my lines as much as he sees my lines. I think I just added a few more smile lines :)

Today is an absolutely beautiful day! I am ready to play outside! Soon, I hope.

Now, onto what a student did...I sent out a job lead and told a little about the position in the email. I said, "If you're interested, please reply and attach your resume". People have finally started to grasp that concept! Well, I get a call from the employer, after sending about 5 resumes to him. He asked if I was sending people who had expressed interest or just people who might match the position. For this particular one, I was only sending people who had expressed interest. He said that he called one of the guys and the guy acted as if he knew nothing about it. He didn't know what the employer was talking about and I guess made it sound like he didn't know he had applied. Regardless...if an employer is coming up to you to talk to you about a position in your field, do you really want to tell him you have no idea what he's talking about? You've received plenty of emails/job leads from me, so why wouldn't you just start talking to him about it instead of acting like you know nothing about it. Oh well, apparently you didn't want the take advantage of that opportunity!

Senseless Ramblings

I'm ready for a house. The condo is nice, but I'd really like to have a yard, a porch, some place to sit outside and relax in the sun. We drive around and see these beautiful places. I'm just ready to go and be in a place of our own. "In due time", says the hubby. :)

We spent a fantastic day with Camryn and Jessica yesterday. It was fun to watch Camryn play in the pool for the 1st time. She's so stinkin cute!! It was good to see them. I'm glad I got to hang out with Jessica too! I wish we lived closer so that we could hang out like we did before. Family living far away is tough. I know they're not crazy far away, at least not all of them. But if they were closer we wouldn't have to be gone all of the time! It's really nice to be home on the weekends, but I feel like we don't do anything when we are. Which is understandable since we are gone so much. I want to do things, but I also want to relax. But relaxing consists of me staying inside all day, due to my lack of motivation...and then I get bummed because I wasted the weekend. Seems like a never ending cycle. AND I wind up getting a headache from sitting in front of the computer and TV all day. Too much complaining!

Also, I feel stuck. Stuck in one spot right now. I remember having this feeling before. I think it was after I graduated from Purdue. I did what I was supposed to do, go to school, get a good job and make lots of money...or at least some money. Then I was stuck after that, I didn't know what to do next. Finidng the right guy was high on my list and that eventually came. That's perfect. I feel like I'm in a funk though. Get up, go to work, come home, eat, watch TV, go to bed and repeat. Now I'm ready for the next step, but that step isn't coming so easily. We'll just keep trying. I sometimes wonder how I'll handle that next step anyway. I mean, I am definitely ready and have been for a long time. I just hope I'm good at it and not lazy about it. I want to do fun stuff. I want to be a fun mom. Maybe that's why I haven't been given the opportunity yet...I need to get out of my funk 1st. I need to stop moping and do something about it. Definitely need to work on that.

Maybe I need a hobby.